You Can't Always Get What You Want...

     People always say that if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans. Well, God is currently laughing so hard at me, there are tears in His eyes.

     You see, I am a stubborn child that likes to plan out my life. In January, I had a pretty decent idea of how the next twelve months were going to go. At the beginning of each of those months, I made a list of goals. Those goals were broken down by weeks and then I figured out what I needed to do each day to have a successful and productive week.

     Oh, yes. I am the mom from The Little Prince movie. (Phenomenal retelling of the book, by the way. If you have the time, you should watch the movie on Netflix.) I love planning. I don't like surprises; I prefer being fully prepared.

     I also have this tattoo on my side that represents "being willing to change". The whole point of me getting that tattoo two years ago was as a personal reminder that it's God's plan, not mine, that I need to follow. Does this mean that I have fixed the error of my planning ways? Oh, Lordy, no. I am still very weak in that department.

     Part of being an adult means being able to accept when your plan and God's plan don't align and trusting that His plan will be better for you in the long run. (Spoiler Alert : It always is.) That's part of what I have been learning this past summer. It's also why I haven't really posted anything on here - I hadn't gotten to the end of my lesson yet.

     At this point in most young adult's life, there are a few things that you start looking for once you have a job. Some of these things may include insurance, phone plans, and apartments. You might have this whole idea of how things will be when you live on your own, but then something happens, like an unexpected knee surgery. Or the fact that you're planning a wedding. Or that you're swimming in debt. All of a sudden, your plan has to go out the window.

     I'm sure y'all have picked up that these are real life examples from yours truly. God knew what was coming this summer, even if I didn't understand what was happening. While living at home at 24 isn't ideal, it does give me a much-needed chance to save money and pay off a huge chunk of loans I might not have been able to do otherwise. It also gives me family support (literally) for after my surgery. Living on my own afterward would be difficult for a while, especially if I ended up on a high floor somewhere.

     So, yes. this summer I haven't gotten everything that I wanted. And, yes, I have been / still slightly am frustrated by it. I think a lot of people feel that way when their plan and God's don't align. However, I have to keep moving forward. I have to remember my tattoo, the reason behind it, and trust that God will take care of me. He has always done so before, and I know that He will this time as well.

I hope your summer break was everything you were hoping for!

Until next time,

Kaity